Well now I see it, it is right in front of me if only I will open my eyes and look to see exactly what it is. I don't really know anyway, I keep on trying to guess, as if I had thought about everything enough and I really expect myself to know what it is, but I am continually decieved by my own mind and while it is as plane as the nose on your face and you can't even see past that, you still think like I do that it must be hiding somewhere else, it does not jump out at me and grab me by the ear and tell me exactly what it is. It maybe the computer screen in front of me or you for that matter, in fact I think it is, but really there is a lot more to life than just that. I have to learn to think like God if that is ever humanly possible to look into the heart of others and know what they are really in need of, what they expect as if I had some kind of need for a crystal ball, that I may have well dropped on the ground for all that was good for and I should have asked God instead to show me and explain everything. He wanted me to know and give Him the time of day or night for that matter, to explain everything instead of wanting to just know everything right now, for some kind of delight in importance of saying now I know everything. That is simply not the case, the more you know, the more you realize what you do not know.

God knows everything and it is better that way as He can give me time to learn things patiently, instead of satisfying my greedy and corrupt nature of self indulgence and self importance all the time. The road to life is not a short one and life is not some kind of instant self gratification of abusive get everything now you like type of thing. There you go, I think it is right in front of me, but wrong again, I really have not got the slightest clue as to what it is, so I just keep asking the question, God What do you want of me? I know it is for me to do your bidding and stop satisfying my own selfish nature and just give up, surrender and follow you. If it was only that easy, or at least that is what I think it is like, as if it is as between a rock and and a hard place, right in front of me, wrong again and I still have no idea what it is and where it is.

Stumped again and so I just keep on asking God the question, Where is it? as if it was as easy as all that and it was right in front of me, so as if I would not have to ask. But the delight and the beauty of creation is not knowing exactly what it is, but waiting for God to reveal Himself in things that are unseen through the ages past and the dawning of the ages to come. Time is the gift that means more than anything in the world, but we are constantly being decieved by all the temptations of money and the trimmings of everything nice and we leave the work to someone else and the good life becomes tiring and sickening. We leave the things of God out of the pictrure and look for anything that we can self indulge on, a pretty picture, no I don't think so.

Tonight your soul will be demanded from you and where will you be then, up the creek without a paddle and on the road to somewhere you have never heard of and not even given a thought to where it is, it is the road to hell and self destruction. Take a minute to think about the twenty four hours that it takes for the earth to turn a full circle, think of the three hundred and sixty degrees that makes up all the places of all the earth, equater that separates the north and south hemisphere and take some time out for the the tropics and the poles.

The tropics are tropical all the time except for cyclones and storms, the poles change from both freezing to thoring each year for both poles. There it is it is right in front of you and you think you know everything, wrong again. Consider the vast expanse of the known universe and then think again about the unknown universe, it just keeps going on and on and on forever and no one will ever know its full extent or even come close, I can't even imagine that but I know it is true. You are not going to hit some kind of brick wall at the end and edge of the universe like the earth was falt and you go off the water fall at its edge. No, it does not simply just stop there, it just keeps on going forever and ever, it is just not humanly possible to know that. There you have it, it is right in front of your face, wrong it is God and you will never completely understand Him either. I would now like to say no harm in that, wrong again, live in God's grace and you might have a chance.